I mentioned in my last post that April and I were on the rocks.  It’s officially over now.  It still burns but I’m going to get over it.  Since yesterday I’ve been eying May from across the room and it’s looking pretty fine.  I don’t want just a rebound thing.  I think May and I could have something good.  Something real good.

Fern’s getting on a plane in less than a week and she’s going to do this next insem in person.  I’m really glad for this because I don’t fully trust the sperm shippers and 30 second old sperm is always better than 12 hour old sperm.  I’m worried that her cycle will be wacky from the travel, though.  The last time we traveled to an insem (in December) we weren’t even sure she ovulated that month.  Also, I can’t go with her so I’m sad to be left out of this insemination entirely.

The good thing about Fern’s cycle is that she usually ovulates fairly early so as soon as we get the final bad news from the last cycle we have to start planning for the new one.  We usually do the first insemination on CD10 which is next week.  It gives me something new to focus on and helps with momentum and not spending a whole week like I spent yesterday: in a zero-energy, crashed-out, depressed lump either on couch, bed or chair in front of the computer.  Actually, we did some yard work yesterday too but I very much wanted to be in bed that whole time :)